I received a lot of email
traffic concerning last week’s message [Msg-5-Oct-2015; Fear, Hate and Politics] – quite a few saying “Hurrah!” and quite a
few indicating how disappointed in me they were. Several days later, at our
weekly ACIM study group, we read from Chapter 24, “The Goal of Specialness.”
Specifically, we were reading from Section IV – “Specialness versus Sinlessness.”
Last week’s message and the
email comments I had received were still fresh in my mind. That entire study
session’s readings, plus the comments from all the attendees, just stabbed me
in my heart.
From 24-IV, paragraph one
(sentences 1-7), from paragraph 4 (sentences 1-4), and from paragraph 5
(sentence 2):
“1:1-7: Specialness is a lack of trust in anyone except yourself. Faith
is invested in yourself alone. Everything else becomes your enemy; feared and
attacked, deadly and dangerous, hated and worthy only of destruction. Whatever
gentleness it offers is but deception, but its hate is real. In danger of
destruction it must kill, and you are drawn to it to kill it first. And such is
guilt’s attraction. Here is death enthroned as savior; crucifixion is now
redemption, and salvation can only mean destruction of the world except
yourself.”
“4:1-4: Earlier I said consider not the means by which salvation is
attained, nor how to reach it. But do consider, and consider well, whether it
is your wish that you might see your brother sinless. To specialness the answer
must be ‘no.’ A sinless brother is its enemy, while sin, if it were
possible, would be its friend.”
“5:2: Only this is certain in this shifting world that has no meaning
in reality: When peace is not with you entirely, and when you suffer pain of
any kind, you have beheld some sin within your brother, and have rejoiced at
what you thought was there.”
And there I was: “Rejoicing”
with all who wrote “Hurrah!” Mentally condemning all who wrote otherwise, as
simply not understanding what I was trying to communicate: namely, condemning
those who willfully fostered hate, anger and fear for there own political
purposes.
Yet, here I had been, on the
high horse of Felix (my ego), doing exactly the same thing. I was no different
than those who I was enjoying hating. I had been assuming I was spiritually right
and correct, all those who disagreed were mistaken and wrong.
Bless Felix’s pea-pickin’ heart.
He had gotten the best of me – yet once again.
My concluding remarks in last
week’s message can be repeated here – in a wholly different context: ACIM teaches me that all my thoughts can be
distilled to being either of Fear or Love. No exceptions! It also proclaims
that Fear is the opposite of Love. I must always steel myself to pause and
think about where my fears are coming from. When I do this, I inevitably understand
that my fear is always coming only from between my ears. I can learn to control
that with the help of the Holy Spirit. All I have to do is earnestly ask for
His help in seeing another way to look at situations or people.
That’s hard for me at times because I love hating haters. God smiles
and shakes His head – I’m still a work in progress.
I’m very grateful to all who
wrote about how disappointed you were. Your comments enabled the Holy Spirit to
prick my heart and allow me to witness the truth that Felix was proclaiming. It
allowed me to see – pretty quickly – what I had done to me. Although I had
written honestly from Felix’s point of view, I had lost sight of the fact I no
longer enjoyed a sense of peace. I was in a state of righteous anger – please emphasize
“anger;” other than providing some egoic justification, “righteous” has nothing
to do with it.
Again, thank you.
Although these messages are
mostly for me, thanks for listening. As always – feel free to forward this
message to your friends, family, and those accompanying you on your spiritual
journey.
Don
#1 Nov 2015
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